The Mother in Me is the Mother in You

Felizitas Stilleke & Friends

© Graziela Diez

March 21, 2021: Thais di Marco
Interviews with Ekedi Gunzolandê & Ekedi Gueregy(in English)

March 28, 2021: Philine Velhagen

April 11, 2021: Tarot Card Set by Smruthi Gargi Eswar (in English)
Order (20€, incl. Shipping & personal introduction by Smu via Zoom) under mother @

May 09, 2021: Monika Gintersdorfer
Interviews with Ordinateur & Alex Cephus

May 13, 2021: Daniel Ernesto Müller-Torres

each at 6.00 pm in the live audio stream and available for re-listening on until the end of May


Felizitas Stilleke aunt, curator, dramaturg, artist and person, gathers in herself and from March to May 2021 in five performative podcast sessions voices of international artists for a collective discourse rededication. Searching for words for not-yet/not-more/maybe/motherhood, each recording illuminates the continuum between patriarchal and extended motherhood in a new settup – and with a tarot card set for listeners at home.

»…as a woman, 37 – tick tock tick tock, wtf – single, childless – who makes up words like that? – divorced, I am apparently looking for – hahaha, no way, nothing! – Although nevertheless, I am urgently looking for a way out of the binary thinking that says someone is a mother or not – or has to become one to become something – or was it exactly the other way around ?…«

Are mothers legible? Is mother a verb? Where in the body sits the desire to have children? Why is it possible on Tinder to specify „has no children, but may want some“ but not „has no children, but may not want any“? Is motherhood choice or something that just (doesn’t) happen? What pauses at menopause? Do mothers who have abortions mutate? Can queer narratives overcome the patriarchal either/or, pros and cons?

In the sessions, there will be a gamble for everything and then for nothing. Fears and prejudices are thrown at each other. Sometimes at table tennis, sometimes with medicine balls; by decolonizing radio broadcasts and summoning higher spirits. The five encounters are the result of a year-long research that now goes from the private to a public, leaving nothing out: environment, sexuality, work, politics, money, career, love and simply life – because no topic does not end up with motherhood.

with Thais di Marco, Philine Velhagen, Smruthi Gargi Eswar, Monika Gintersdorfer, Daniel Ernesto Müller-Torres uvm. by and with Felizitas Stilleke Sounddesign, music Miguel Toro | Christian Fleck (Session Smu) Jingle barner16 Voice jingle Wikiriot Setdesign Anahí Pérez Livestream Matthias Krause, Sebastian Pablo Poloni Production management Franziska Janke Thanks to Bettina Andrae, George Demir, Daniela Dröscher, Louis Häming, Marc Fischer, Martje Friedrich, Dr. Colin Kehrer, Anja Kreher, Sarah Israel, Julia Knopp, Elisa Liepsch, Peggy Mädler, Gabriel Milliet, Maria Nübling, Tina Pfurr, Antje Prust, Wilma Renfordt, Ben J. Riepe, Maria Rößler, Merel Smitt, Sandra Umathum, Avril Stormy Unger, Anna-Lena Wenzel, ocelot book store Berlin, the Ballhaus Ost crew and my (whale-)family

A production by Felizitas Stilleke in cooperation with Ballhaus Ost. Funded by Hauptstadtkulturfonds, Bezirksamt Pankow, Amt für Weiterbildung und Kultur – Fachbereich Kunst und Kultur – and a working and research grant from the Berlin Senate Department for Culture and Europe.